Saturday Cardio & toning and Sunday GYM DAY WITH BOYFRIEND FOR THE FIRST TIME

Hello Fluffies,

Its a week of getting used to new things. For instance, the gym that I've been going to is going to close down soon. I'm gonna start my part time job next weekend which means :( no more gymming on sundays :( no more ice cream sundays :( 

Definitely a lot of planning and scheduling to be done. Oh and my first assignment is due Sept 12th. I think I'm gonna struggle with the 3000 word essay. 

Anyways, I hit the gym with my boyfriend for the first time today! It's leg day for the both of us and we did a few exercises. Not as much as usual but I was sweating ALOT more than usual.. which is quite disgusting coz a bead of my sweat actually dripped onto my boyfriend's lap >.<

What I did:
1. Running with 4 incline:
    1.2km
2. Squats with 15kg weights each side:
    3 sets of 10 reps 
3. Squats with 15kg weights each side with 20kg Barbell:
    3 sets of 8 reps 
4. Hamstring curls with 4kg weight:
    3 sets of 8 reps 
5. Standing kickbacks with 6kg weight:
    3 sets of 10 reps each leg 
6. Standing side swing with 5kg weight:
    2 sets of 10 reps each leg
7. Random punches:
    A few times
8. AB rollers:
    2 failed attempts

That was it for the day. Not alot of work done considering I would usually do dead lifts, walking lunges and quad extensions. But I felt more tired than usual :/

Last night, I went to Crystal jade at Holland Village for the XLB buffet with my friends. It was a buffet, I definitely had to 'prep' and workout before I head out to sin big time. So here's the workout for Saturday's Piggin' Out:

Fitness Blender's 1000 Calorie workout (I DID ONLY DID HIIT PORTION.)

8 minute abs

5 best muffintop melting moves:

Spring fling 1: Toning Workout

Playa Del Plank

Now for the fun bit, here's the food that we had yesterday: 

Gula Melaka Soft serve on Waffles from Sunday Folks

Here's us after Sunday folks because soft serve ain't got nothing on real scooped ice cream

Us at 10pm, feasting our lives away on XLBs...

 

Stacks of XLBs

This was supposed to be dessert after drinks at Wala but everyone was too stuffed so each of us took one home. These cupcakes from Plain Vanilla are awesome. I haven't had a good cupcake in a while!

I had the chocolate banana cupcake and it was dope :>

Handsome boiboiz90

I had the best pocky of my entire life yesterday, courtesy of my boyfriend. If you ever come across Matcha Chocolate pocky please do not let it slip away. Please BUY IT. It's worth the calories honey.

Saturday thoughts

Hello fluffies,

I'm down with fluuuuuuu. I don't know about you but whenever I'm sick, I get hungry. Like ravenous. It's hard because I know I've gone well over the limit of my daily recommended calorie intake. And yet I still feel incredibly hungry. I just crave everything! Me no like to feel hungry :( I'm glad I was in the comfort of my boyfriend's arms. 

I decided to write about some thoughts about Thursday's orientation. It was daunting. 

I felt exactly the way that I did before when I was back in Temasek poly.

Years back, I felt very insecure about my size. It was something that people have cruelly made me feel day in and day out. I remember every disgusted stare, every blatant comment about how I've grown bigger, every time when some one tries to rephrase a comment about my weight and every time someone tells me to control myself and what I eat. 

Someone even told me that if I were skinny, we would have been best friends. Though I was never interested in her friendship.

The labels on the thin model are not untrue. When we see a beautiful well groomed person, we automatically slap on these labels subconsciously.  I admit that there are times when I've judged similar looking girls. Being fat, I automatically assumed skinnier prettier girls will all be mean to me. 

Still so clear and vivid, I remember that on the very first day of poly, I kept my mouth sealed shut. I didn't speak to anyone until I reached home. At that time, I was nursing a broken spirit and self conscious about my size. Just like a bull in a china shop. In my mind, I kept believing that I'm just going to irk my classmates because of how big I am. I kept thinking I was taking up a lot of space in between the 2 ladies sitting by my sides. 

That was about 5 years ago.

I took about 1.5 years to get to wear I am right now. It is very weird because I always thought I've grown to be used to this size that I am right now. Turns out, I'm really not. 

On Thursday, I walked around refusing to look at anyone else in the face, other than occasionally peering at the pretty female classmate and marvelling at her lace top. When I walked up the stairs, I tried to walk slower and lighter. Every step I took, I tried to minimize the imaginary impact caused by my weight. 

Yet every time I see myself in the mirror, on the glass windows, or any reflective surface, it's a shock to me that I'm about the same size as everyone else. I'm no longer a plus size girl. I'm no longer a broken spirit, but a happy one. Maybe too contented that I'm starting to get lazy about life. 

I've made a mental note to be as kind as I can to fluffier people and also to myself. It is not easy trying to shake off the labels that people have given me and it is not easy to be contented after shaking it all off because once you know you've come this far, you believe you can go further and maybe earn other better 'labels'. 

I have a tough time letting this sink in but I'm trying. If you are facing the same problem as me, I hope that you know you are not alone and we're all trying. :)